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前天下午出席了一场葬礼，是我老公外公的葬礼；晚上五妹回家告诉我她的朋友将会在新加坡医院进行安乐死，听了只想到一句话：“人生无常”。

这几年，我陆续听到亲人或朋友或朋友的朋友的死讯。三姑丈，外公，朋友的母亲，四舅，爱人老公，老公的外公，妹妹的朋友。。。有些是生病而死；有些是意外而死；有些则是因为老了而死。

生老病死这四个步骤是我们人生中所谓的平常事。但是如果还年轻, 卻因为得了重病或意外而自接跳到第四个步骤，那真的会带给亲人或朋友一个措手不及，自感叹人生无常！！！

所以我珍惜我身边的亲人和朋友们，珍惜着和大家一起相处的日子。当然在一起相处的日子难免会发生不愉快的事，但是我相信 “最好的会过去。最坏的，也是会过去。”。所以会以平常心去看待生活，因为很多事情并不是永恒的。

我也开始关心我的身体健康了。从我老公的身上，我了解了一件事：不吸烟，不喝酒不代表你不会得重病。身体健康是我们最重要的宝物，没有了健康，什么事真的想做都无能为力的去做了。

活着是一件有意义的事。所以趁我还活着的时候，我要好好的珍惜每一分每一秒。希望大家能健健康康，平平安安的度过每一天。^^

">我会想念你

今年的新年，情人节是我第一次过没有你在我身边的节日。还记得情人节时你煮的爱心晚餐的味道；你自制爱心卡片的感动及我收到你为我准备的爆笑礼物的心情。。。新年时带我家人去绿野仙踪游玩及带他们去不同文化的素食餐厅尝尝不同的美味食物，还有和他们一起去看电影的种种有趣的事情，我还记得。

我知道从你去世的那一刻开始，我的未来不会再有你的参与。。。但我还是会想念你。你叫我忘记你，我说 “对不起，我不会忘记你”。  你生气，我说 “我会想念你，我不会忘记我们的约定。因为想念你，我才能勇敢和坚强的活下去。”  在离别的那一时刻，我真的不甘心放手，泪水不停的一直流，但想起了我们的约定—-我们约好了下一世还会
再相遇，才放手。这一世我会好好的和我们的宝贝女儿—僮僮一起参与彼此的未来，所以你不必担心。

我和你过去一切的点点滴滴已成了美好的回忆，不能再回头。剩下的路我会勇敢的向前跑。。。嘿嘿，连你的份也一起和僮僮活下去。

永远记得我们最后的言语及最后的笑脸：

敏超：“ 我爱你。”
淑慧：“ 我也爱你。”

Dear Tung Tung,

hi hi.. Today is ur 8th day come to this world ^^

Mummy love u so much…. u r the angel sent from the God n from ur daddy =) u make mummy feel energy and strong again =) even though mummy was very pain for 12 hours while giving birth… but when mummy heard ur crying voice… mummy feel so tough then forgot everything’s. heihei…. u r the one make mummy’s world colorful again ^^

Mummy still remembers that 1st day u was so quiet then just slept only. but 2nd & 3rd day, u made mummy feel very worried coz u cried n cried only… mummy kept asking nurse that were you sick o… luckily when u discharged from hospital, everything’s gone smoothly…. hei, at last mummy feel relived ^^   

now, u start naughty edi…. whole family love u so much especially ur grandma n grandpa… and ur youngest aunty… she help mummy to changed ur pampers, to feed u honey then she likes to hug u… heihei…. u really an angel to make everyone happy… ur smiling face very pretty… ur aunt who study at China said that she want to hug you and kiss you…

Mummy little princess, mummy hope that u always healthy and strong just like your English name Valencia… always bring happiness and brightness to everyone just like your Chinese name Tung Yean.

Love,

Mum

Dear Tung Tung,

hi hi.. today is ur 8th day come to this world ^^

Mummy love u so much…. u r the angel sent from the God n from ur daddy =) u make mummy feel energy and strong again =) even though mummy was very pain for 12 hours while giving birth… but when mummy heard ur crying voice… mummy feel so tough then forgot everythings. heihei…. u r the one make mummy’s world colourful again ^^

Mummy still remember that 1st day u were so quiet then just slept only. but 2nd & 3rd day, u made mummy feel very worried coz u cried n cried only… mummy kept asking nurse that were you sick o… luckily when u discharged from hospital, everythings gone smoothly…. hei, at last mummy feel relived ^^   

now, u start naughty edi…. whole family love u so much especially ur grandma n grandpa… and ur youngest aunty… she help mummy to changed ur pampers, to feed u honey then she likes to hug u… heihei…. u really an angel to make everyone happy… ur smiling face very pretty… ur aunt who study at China said that she want to hug you and kiss you…

mummy little princess, mummy hope that u always healthy and strong just like your english name Valencia… always bring happiness and brightness to everyone just like your chinese name Tung Yean.

Love,

Mum

Miss my beloved husband…!

Bebe…. how r u? I miss you so much than i thought!!!

13 days edi u was not at here, still can’t believe that u were not around n beside me edi. Everything happened too fast n too suddenly. I thought at least v still have 1 year can accompany each other as doctor told us. But just only 1 month plus only… too short for me and for u. I knew that u want to c our beloved baby delivery and touch her as u promised to me. But ur body condition can’t let u to do it. God need ur help and called u back to heaven. U went peacefully like u r sleeping. Even though i still crying a bit — sometimes when i alone (i thought i m strong enough). But i still remember what i promised to u –> Be stronger and stronger, take k our beloved coming child. So, let me cry puas puas 1st. After that i will stand up and be a stronger mummy… may be need sometimes, but i believe that i can do it as u promised to me that u will still surround me n baby to protect us even though v cant c u anymore. 

Bebe… i really really miss U…